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She's always taken care of the house, but she learns in these years how to take care of life.

A lot of their first few weeks of nights out she plans. She knows what Carlisle likes, but she doesn't know what he has and hasn't seen. Where the differentiating line is between what he's seen and what they'd seen together, before or even after she arrived. These were their things and she didn't pry.

But she does know, all too well, the face he makes when she suddenly suggests one of the latter ones. The look that says he's looking somewhere else, somewhere far away, somewhere she can't follow and she waits knowing he'll be back.

Whether back is in five minutes or five days.


Which happened a few hours ago.


Again.




Instead of the Grand Ole Opry, Esme is organizing the bookshelves.

The first four were easy, but the one she's on is normal book for the top three shelves and then the bottom three are going to be for Carlisle's journals. She has the bookshelf redecoration mapped out in her head. The stacks around her, existing in a way that likely only makes sense to her. There's no one else to disturb them, but she's stuck staring at the piles of journals.

Wondering, logically, and testing the silence --

"Carlisle?"

Date: 2009-09-08 01:05 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (collecting information)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
"Hmm."

Acknowledgement and question in one, even if he does still sound vacant. Carlisle is sifting through a medical report that had been forwarded to him from the hospital.

Date: 2009-09-08 01:20 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (at the patient's bedside)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
A passing glance before returning to his report. "Current what?"

Date: 2009-09-08 01:33 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (Paul Newman black and white)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
"Oh."

It makes sense, as questions go.




From the way Carlisle's expression twists, he doesn't really have a good answer for his wife.

At least he's looking at her now.

Date: 2009-09-08 01:43 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (typewriter and old knowledge)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
"They're fine wherever you wish to store them."

Away, here, being the primary concern that flickers across Carlisle's mind as he turns back around away from Esme again.






Over the back of the chair five minutes later: "There just doesn't seem to be much worth writing down."

Date: 2009-09-08 02:04 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (dark hair)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
She knows the answer to that by now here, doesn't she?

"It happens every once in awhile that I do not want to...record my thoughts and meanderings of the day."

But that's not right either --

he told Edward once that it was the writing of it that was soothing, not the record of events

-- so Carlisle tries to shrug the news off as more trivial than his wife will find it.

Date: 2009-09-08 02:17 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (Dr. Cullen)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
Carlisle swallows and starts to shift. His hand disappears down between the seat cushion and the frame of the chair Carlisle is occupying, drawing out a small pocket-sized notebook, pristine bindings and barely-cracked spine.

He opens the book, flipping through pages quickly. "Last entry's about two months ago maybe."

Even from Esme's position she could see none of the entries are dated. Only Carlisle can tell the one before that last was at least a month older.

Carlisle hands the book to Esme. "It can get filed away too."

Date: 2009-09-08 02:22 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (doing what needs doing)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
The journal gets lightly thrust towards Esme again.

Date: 2009-09-08 02:32 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (Historically Dressed)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
"I told you I'd try harder, Esme."

Their nights out. Smiling when necessary and sometimes even not when necessary.

It only took him a day to notice the living room being rearranged this time.

"You thought I was doing better because I was writing."

Date: 2009-09-08 02:36 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (Carlisle says don't be an asshole)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
"I am dealing with it."

Date: 2009-09-08 02:43 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (doing what needs doing)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
"And what exactly do you suggest I write about?"

He will feel badly about hurting Esme's sensibilities later. But that is later, and right now Carlisle is trying to keep himself from snapping at her. If he wants to write he will write.

He doesn't want to. Why is that so horrible?

Date: 2009-09-08 02:54 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (Paul Newman black and white)
From: [personal profile] ofthefamily
It is so rare that anyone says Edward's name aloud in the house. Carlisle flinches.

Date: 2009-09-08 03:05 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (family crest)
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"I don't want to," comes out before Carlisle can stop himself. "I don't want to move away from Edward."

Date: 2009-09-08 03:15 pm (UTC)
ofthefamily: (at the patient's bedside)
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"You...you just want me to pretend."

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